My softball team is in a tournament now and later today I have a game. Ugh Im so tired! Im so tired of softball and bats and gloves and all that sports stuff. Im sick of it, but its pretty much the only life I have, and Im actually good at it. In fact Im really good at it. But honestly, I hate how some girls on the team dont try as hard. They literally just give up, and sit on the bench. Some have potential but dont care. I hate that.
Softball is a sport that builds character. It increases endurance and teaches friendship and teamwork. I didnt get it in the beginning either, what with different girls I had never even seen walk around school before, but when I met them, they were beautiful, strong, talented girls who I wanted to be just like. I got good at this sport and sure it was no canoe and paddle, but it was what I had to work with... And through softball I seriously had to shape up. I had to learn to do what others told me, and how to get better by doing it. I honestly think that I got something genuine from it.
That is what I need to bring to my team. I want them to have the will to work, and the strenght to pick each other up and stay up. There are too many that give up too easily. I dont want that. I also dont want to hear my dad nag everyday about how the coaching staff sucks and how they dont push us hard enough, and how my swing needs serious adjustment. HELLO earth to father, this is a softball team that teaches the basics. Its for the learning experience, and not everything is about winning.
We lost sorely yesterday. Yeah sorely is a word... now.
It was Na Pa'ani, and they LICKED our sorry asses. For you haoles and mainlanders, that just means they gave us spanks. But only because they bunted the shit out of the ball, and we had some major errors. I have to admit, we tried, but it wasnt enough. The girls just need something more than another loss. They need a push, but im not the leader that they should have. Sometimes I too wish the coaches did a little more, but its not just their fault. Its everyones attitude and how they feel about the game. They dont take it seriously.
I guess it was when one of the girls from my varsity team last year told me that she wasnt going to sit here and not make it to states. The previous year their team placed fifth in their division, and she explained so well to how good it felt. I wanted that too. And then just a few months ago, we had made it to states, and once again placed fifth.
She was right. It felt so good. Which is why im going to push our girls to try even when were down, and to pick each other up when they missed their chance for the third out.
Yes I can say that I love softball, even though it smothers me to death. Even though I dont want to admit it to my dad. Even though I wanted to paddle so bad it made me cry. I love softball because it makes me feel good, and totally not sneaky or heartless :)
